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My name is Michtashia Micheng Bumbumpaw. Full-time couch potato. I love milk, dinosaurs and chilling out. I don't like blocked noses and spicy food. I speak English, Bahasa Indonesia and Mandarin plus a little Korean. I sing in the shower occasionally and I pick my wedgie in public.

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michtashia@msn.com


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    Friday, October 18, 2013 @ October 18, 2013
    Feeling like crap

    I feel like crap. Really. I'm trying to keep it altogether but I'm not okay on the inside. I do have self-confidence issue. Not those of how I look but of my achievements and position and education and expectations.

    I really don't know how much I've disappointed others. I don't know exactly what they expect of me. I don't know why am I so conscious of their judgements.

    It sucks really, I want to shout a string of profanities but what for, it wouldn't change anything. I want to bawl my eyes out but what for, it wouldn't change anything. I want to break plates and punch stuff, but what for, it wouldn't change anything.

    I also feel wronged. Just because I know too much doesn't mean I'm at fault.

    Everything is just very sucky right now. I don't even know what is going on.

    I really need a hug. And the assurance that not everything I did was all bad. I know I've made pretty rash and bad decisions. I'm sorry but I really don't know what you want from me when you are not giving me much help.

    I hate myself enough, don't make me hate myself more.


    Love, Peace & o(T^T)o
    MICHTASHIA