profile My name is Michtashia Micheng Bumbumpaw. Full-time couch potato. I love milk, dinosaurs and chilling out. I don't like blocked noses and spicy food. I speak English, Bahasa Indonesia and Mandarin plus a little Korean. I sing in the shower occasionally and I pick my wedgie in public. Drop me an email! michtashia@msn.com Pages Previous Page | Next Page affiliates 
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Thursday, June 28, 2012 @ June 28, 2012
Growing?  "Michelle isn't afraid of Papa & Mama. She's only afraid of Jeff." Funny how what Papa said is both true & weird. Considering that Jeff is my SECOND brother & not my oldest brother …& just based on the fact that he's my 'sibling' & not my 'parent'. Thinking back, I've got an image of a dictator whenever I think of Jeff. I guess it all started in 1995 but who cares. The kind of 'afraid' I get when I'm with Jeff isn't the kind that is bad, just the kind of 'afraid' that makes me not able to defy him although I really don't wish to listen to him. For example, after telling me to not skip 5am morning prayer meetings - my body automatically wakes up at 4.20am the next day. Friends commented on my drastic change in actions whenever Jeff is around. Like when Jeff isn't around, I'd be prancing & goofing around but when Jeff is in the 'vicinity', I'd be a normal sane Michelle. Don't get me wrong, I really love Jeff & I look up to him. He isn't strict with me but he is firm when dealing with his 'teenage' (I know I'm almost 21, but I do admit that I act 15) sister. --- Today I skipped yet another 5am Prayer Meeting. Mama said she'll tell Jeff so he would deal with me (Jeff is out of the city) & Papa said he's gonna be stern with me starting tomorrow. A part of me isn't looking forward to whatever that's been told yet another part of me wished I would be a bit more disciplined (I see myself slacking & going back to my old habits). Reading whatever that's been typed above, one would think that it is a teenager ranting on & on, well, it's actually me. Michelle. Turning 21 in 3 weeks. I really should grow up. --- Ka Yosep gave me a poster and registration form to a school in Jakarta. It's some Media & Technology course. He told me that it's a good school & I should join since I have "potential" in those areas. I really don't know what to think, I'll just wait till Jeff is back. Papa does want me to stay & help out in the Media committee in church but I don't even know how long I'd be in Tegal for. I mean, Media isn't really what I'm interested in although I know I do have "talents" in that area. Maybe it's time that I really fast & pray for my future. There are a lot of uncertainty - from my part. I wanna do majors I'm interested in but it seems like God has other plans for me. I actually kinda know where I'm being led to but I refuse to take heed. For now, I just wish I would grow up without growing old. Love, Peace & Dilemma MICHTASHIA |